why are we looking for the rainbow when it hasn't even rained?

the voice within

10:39 AM
Sunday, January 23, 2005

pardon me for being so melancholic. Suddenly, I'm thrown in an abyss of songs that somehow depict what I'm going through.

So, anyone who's like me, listen to these two songs and cry out your pain, alright?

First is a song, which I loved for a few weeks now. It's like a given sign to me. I really felt the soul of the song but never expected it to actually reflect my emotions. I can almost imagine myself saying these words to him. It's called Missing by Evanescence.

Secondly, it's a heart-wrenching Malay song. I almost never listen to Malay songs cos I wasn't into Malay rock. But I'm quite fond of Indon rock bands nowadays. Yet it was quite a miracle how I got to listen to it on RIA 89.7FM as I was hoping to hear lagu raya during Ramadhan. Maybe it was meant to be. Just listen to the piano piece on this one. And Duta's amazing vocals. It's called Berhenti Berharap (in English, 'Stop Hoping') by Sheila On 7.

Missing : evanescence

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious,
you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence,
I know -You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Berhenti Berharap : sheila On 7

aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati

aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
dengan mampu menerangi
sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapa
tkenapa ada derita

bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan...

Chorus:
aku pulang...tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu

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kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

Full time real estate secretary/ part-time struggling poet / freelance web/graphics designer.

A rebel without a cause, she manages to get out of trouble for looking “innocent”. Well, most of the times.

Express her mood/ feelings through the tunes blastin' on her Zen Neeo (currently: The Raconeurs, Muse, Arctic Monkeys, McFly, Placebo, Simple Plan, Fall Out Boys and Panic! At The Disco)

Craves for chocolates and durian rolls, can never resist a SALE and always always ALWAYS complaining about her day job.